adios amigos {goodbye}

i'm saying goodbye.
i'm probably not going to miss you.
hope that's not too harsh.
there just comes a time when you gotta go.

and it's time for you to get out of here.

so i'm saying goodbye to some people in my life.

if you lie to me, about me, about my family, about my loved ones.
if you manipulate me, manipulate my family, manipulate my loved ones.
if you are lazy.
if i am disposable to you.
if you are self-righteous.
if you only want me when you need me.
if you just won't stop complaining.
if you're ungrateful.
if you are conniving.
if you expect everyone to do everything for you and do nothing for anyone in return.
if you only call when you want to talk about yourself, your life, your struggles.
if you are always the victim.
if you can't be bothered by the people who have invested in you for years.
if you are demanding.
if you are demeaning.
if you couldn't care less about me, about my family, about my loved ones.
if you find pleasure in hurting people.
if you talk about me but not to me.
if you are bitter.
if you are unkind.

it would be awesome if i could actually remove all of those people from my life. but i can't. i can however, stop investing in, stop thinking about & stop being hurt by these people. people can only hurt you if you let them. they can only bother you if you let them. people can only be in your life if you let them.

so see ya.

those of you that i can actually remove myself from - adios. those of you i can't? i'm removing you from my priority list. life is too full, it's too beautiful, it's too yellow to be weighed down by these kinds of people.

and they're everywhere. every day, i'm dealing with manipulators and liars and complainers. every day, people are demanding, they're unkind, they're ungrateful & they're conniving. people that are most important to me are expectant, bitter, lazy & self-righteous. i lay awake at night thinking about people that i'm disposable to. i love people that admittedly use me and my loved ones.

and it's time for you to go. as td jakes said, i have the gift of goodbye. it's not that i'm hateful, i'm faithful. i have too much going on for me, too much potential, too many people that make me a better person to keep focusing on those that bring me down, upset me & don't care. my life is too yellow for you.

so this is it for us. it's been real. it's been fun. but it ain't been real fun.

xx